It's now Wednesday evening, Dave is due back tonight from Anguilla. His plane is scheduled to land at 8.30pm and I can't wait for him to be home. It has to be said that I do not mind him going away so much, and it gives me a break from cooking separate meals and tidying up after another person. The kids too have not really missed him much... and I am wondering if we could survive in the UK without him whilst he carried on working here in Trinidad. Jasmine has just said the house is quieter without him as nobody's shouting!!! But.. I am the shouter, how has it now transpired that Dave is the shouter??? Is it the grumpy old man coming out in him??? He's dad in him? Or me, transferrance?
Why do I have to analyse so much? What purpose does it serve? Does it make me a better person, trying to understand why we do things? All part of self awareness? Will I learn from it? Or am I just torturing myself and filling my head with critical thoughts? Why all this thinking? Would it be better if I was an air head, no thoughts at all about anything? Well, preconcieved ideas? Be open to anything that comes my way and just let it be???Accepting things for what they are and not reading into anything... not thinking that every action has a motive behind it? Do I do things with a motive behind my actions? What is the motivation for people's actions?
Argh! Too many questions... will just let it all stew and see what happens....
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